mudha47

Tonight was spent with me wallowing with my bestie and sister La, over recent events that I'd rather not share why, but needless to say wallowing with her is the best time ever.

It was total and true La and Mooduh night, starting off with noodles, and finishing with us crashing (though earlier than expected) after 2 episodes of gilmore girls, 2 pints of ben and jerry's, a bowl of microwave popcorn and of course endless texting.

Gods I miss la when she's not home.

anyways, I was questioned as to why Im wallowing and what is the point of wallowing....clearly some  people need to be very well schooled.
La and I take a lot of life lessons from the show gilmore girls, but most importantly we take these, and christen them the La Duh Laws:

1. Movie nights are sacred.
2. Wallowing is a must, irregardless of whether or not the wallower feels the need to wallow, and it is up to the non-wallower to make sure the wallower wallows in proper wallow format including junk food, copious amounts of ben and jerry's, sappy movies/several episodes of gilmore girls, and of course an EXTREMELY comfy couch.
3. Tacos.
4. No matter what, you can always rely on your bestie.
5. Always caffinate.

Though as much as the wallowing helped, there is still some wallowing to be done.  Maybe I'm making it out to be more than it is, but as far as the situation goes, i'm having a hard time deciding where the JUST friends line ends and the flirty/crush line begins.  When I look back on everything that's happened, I feel like I never really crossed the JUST friends line anywhere (EXCEPT physically).  Does that put us in the friends with benefits area only?  Or did we go from just friends, to something more, then back to just friends?  I'm seriously feeling the latterIts weird, and I miss him as a friend even though I know he's not gone.  But things are different now, and I'm not sure how to react to the situation.  I mean, I don't know how to act where it isn't how I would act around any of my other friends...I guess thats the problem with being yourself around someone, when the time comes where you feel like you need to act differently, you don't know who to be.